So it's next week now!!! Woohoooo!!!! I'll be going on the Saturday with meh good friend ~kawaiijenna which will be her first expo. I'll be cosplaying Summer Drifloon and she'll be cosplaying the trainer from White/Black. So if you wanna meet up tell me and we can!!!

I took every ones advice and went to my GP today about getting assessed for Asperger Syndrome. We waited for 40 minutes past out appointment time =_= silly doctors.

I found out pretty much nothing :T She told me to get a letter from my college and that was it pretty much. I left no better off than when I started.

So I contacted this place called Asperger East Anglia which the lady at college also recommended me to contact so I'll see what happens from there. The more I read up about it the more I begin to think I might actually have this ... I dunno >.< I need answers!!!!


On another note. Expo next month!!!!! FOOK YESSS! I'll be going on the Saturday cosplaying as Drifloon with my good friend ~kawaiijenna who will be cosplaying the Pokemon Black Trainer :3

Yeah, I still have some commissions to do right now that are just points but because I REALLY need some money right now I'm posting these in my Journal again. So if you could help me out that'd be very helpful and kind of you u_u

Line Art Chibi: $3
Colour Chibi: $5


Colour Head Shot: $6
Line Art Waist Up: $5
Colour Waist Up: $8


Line Art Full Body: $8
Colour Full Body: $10



+BG (Transparent if not selected) : $1
+ per extra person: $1

Note me if you're interested >w<

I need to write more Journals. I stopped for ages :T Sorry.

I had a meeting with this lovely lady called Vicki to try and come up with ways to help me like cope better in social situations.

She told me that I should get assessed for Asperger Syndrome and to look up about it on a site she gave me and to book an appointment with my GP. She then shew me the college's Rugroom (They have SLEEPING BAGS in there o.o) which was awkward as hell! She tried to make me sit in the 'pod' thing but I just stood outside not talking being awkward as fuck :T

Then she booked me an appointment with some group at College and I'm not rlly sure what that's about .... (my memory fails me)

But I don't know if I should go to my GP or not. I ... gah no >.< just ... the thought of going there ... no ... no.

But yeah, putting that out there. Everyone seems to give me good advice on DA so ... advice? x

Been a while since I wrote an entry but I'm gonna write one now to get it off my chest. I'm refusing to tell my parents yet I'm gonna write it for the world to see =3= I'm such a stupid girl.

I'm the kind of girl who suffers in silence and prefers to deal with stuff on her own. I'm blaming High School for this because I learnt to ignore everything bad and I guess it put me back into my shell which I find hard coming out of - so if you see the real me you must be very special.

I'm studying  German at college right now, and I was like yaaaaay I get to study my beloved German but now I'm just like .. no, I can't do this anymore. I wanted to go to Uni to study German so I could become fluent and go live there. Now, that dream is NEVER gonna happen.

In my practice test I got a U overall D': a U! And we need at least a D to pass the exam. That wasn't involving the speaking exam though which is in May And ... I'm so shy/unsociable that I'm gonna fail that because I DON'T TALK TO PEOPLE! I always avoid situations where I have to socialize. We have to speak to the German lady like every week to practice and I hate it. I take soooo long to give her an answer. I doubt my german abilities and I don't like talking to new people/adults so I don't say much. The pauses are like several minutes long and it's meant to be like a conversation. If Jenna was my examinor I'd pass lol. I thought it would be the same setup as GCSE but it's not. A-Level German is SO much harder.

My teachers talked to me yesterday. Ilona gave me Naruto volume 2 in German which she bought in Germany for me and she gave me it and I was SUPER happy! But then my teachers were like we need to chat. They told me I'm basically gonna fail it. They don't see me passing at all. And there I was just crying. I didn't even speak to them. The thing that bothers me the most of out that chat though was me putting something stupid on a worksheet. We had to put 3 things we learnt on the back. I couldn't think of a 3rd thing and as we were eating cake I put 'How to enjoy cake' - HOW STUPID COULD I GET?!?!?! Why the hell did I do that. I thought they'd get the joke but no.

I don't feel welcome in that class anymore. They said I should re-take the AS year, because there is no way I'm going to pass onto A2. But then I wouldn't be with Josh or Illona. I'd have to go through the trauma of making new friends again. I don't want that. Jenna might re-do AS German too. But oh gosh it's all so horrible. It's all I can think about. I feel sick. I don't even want to eat food anymore! I just want to cry everytime it's mentioned. And it tutorial today I just now my form tutor is gonna have ANOTHER chat with me and then in Textiles again I'll just cry. Cry and cry and cry just like last week. And Lizzy if probs being inspected on that lesson but I'm still gonna just cry. I ... I'm a failure. I can't even tell my parents. It's hurting them. I just want them to be proud of me. I need to sort stuff out on my own before I tell them. I need to know what I'M going to do. There is no need to involve them.

I don't want to go to German on Monday. I don't want to be near my teachers. I don't want to face them. Gosh I'm all teary right now. It's like my heart is being broken. I feel as if I've let everyone down. I told my High School teacher I was gonna go to Uni to german but now ... that's not gonna happen. I just wanted to be fluent

I can't talk to anybody. I really do just keep everything to myself. I'm a stupid little girl who can't face her fears and when her grades are bad she refuses to tell anyone.

At least Art and Textiles are doing ok. But still ... German ...




I doubt anyone even read this but ..... hmmm

Hello - Just to say I'm still doing cash commissions (as it's the only source of income I have and I haven't had any since before Christmas so I'm making a journal)



Ta-daa! So if you could help me out that'd be great =w=b

And it's snowing outside =_= why ... just why OTL

Yo - if you watch me and you know of an awesome artist called  ..... who are sending HURTFUL and THREATENING notes to her.

STOP IT RIGHT NOW!!!

I have no idea if you'll even read this post the people who are doing it. But I need to do something because it involves me and one of my best friends.

She does NOT copy my work. She has her own original style and she is much better than me. She hasn't stole my style at all. You guys have no idea what you're on about.

My shading is inspired by Emma's because SHE TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO IT!!! She didn't copy me, if anything - I copied her in a way. (Although she's much more pro at it)

Please stop sending this hurtful messages to her. I will find out who you are sooner or later so please do not carry on doing this. She is my friend. I don't like this at all.

Please stop.

Thanks.

Did everyone have a nice Christmas? I know I did. I spent it with my parents and brother cuz my Nanny and aunties didn't want us there =_= oh wellz.

I got:
About 6 boxes of Chocolate/Sweets
Gloves
Bed Socks
Normal Socks (I've gotten to that age where you get socks for Christmas)
2 Hair Bands
A colouring Bag
A cute Highland Terrier Puppy drawing set which came with a sketchbook which I'm drawing in. Also came with 3 pencils, a pencil sharpener, 3 rubbers and a ruler
Money
Toblerone P: Omnomnom
And Pokemon Black 2!!

Gah I love that game, Bianca looks cute with glasses!! I have 5 gym badges I think. I also called my rival Rudolph haha.

Now I'm going to run away and have some Stollen! German food I love you so x





... also my dog might have her cancer back. Dad found a lump on her leg on Christmas Morning where her last tumor was ... Oh well - here's hoping ^o^

Up until Christmas. The money would go towards my personal hobbies, school and Christmas presents =3= because I get no income other than this ;3; so it'd be great if you could commission me please x



Cash Commissions always get bumped up to the top of my todo list, so don't let that scare you. $5 is about £3 and 4 Euros if you want to get all techniqual but .... I much prefer $$$ even though I'm in England as most the stuff I buy is in $$$. But you can pay in £££ or Euros if you wish. Paypal only.

I hope to do business with you ^w^;; <3

Hallo! I'm in the need of some money and my cash commissions are open. I do have a fairly large to-do list which you can find on my page if you wanna know like ... how long you gotta wait. I hope to get that list finished next week as it's half term  

I only accept paypal so if you want a CC note me and I shall tell you my paypal Prices are:

Line Art Chibi $3 (I have no examples of a line art cuz I like colour XD)
Colour Chibi $5:
(The only recent chibi drawing I have o.o but your commission will have shading)

Line Art Waist Up $5 (I have no examples of a line art cuz I like colour XD)
Colour Waist Up $8:


Line Art Full Body: $8 (I have no examples of a line art cuz I like colour XD)
Colour Full Body: $10


+ Background $1 (transparent if not selected)
+ Extra Person $1

Thanks

Best Part of Red Dwarf II xD

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OMG I can't get this song out my head since Sunday >.< I'm so not gonna learn that dance XD

I'll be going on the Sunday as Jade Harley from Homestuck I really enjoy cosplaying Homestuck. I would go as Aradia again but as I'm bringing my DD I don't want the face paint to rub off and stain her

If you're going we should totes hang out and stuff I'll be going to the Homestuck Meet also <3 Woohoo!

Anyone wanna RP with me on Pesterchum? I'm using Dahrah. Anyone up for it? I'm bored.

Handle is: suavesMemoria

Tagged by

RULES:
1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create ten new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 10 people.

FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. My fave OC is actually Suke
2. I'm super lazy when it comes to animating
3. I love learning Languages such as German, Croatian and Japanese and a little bit of Korean.
4. I'm a sucker for sad films/anime series.
5. My dreams at night are generally all messed up - like last night o.o what the heck was going on =_=

SEL'S QUESTIONS FOR COOL FOLKS:
1. What kind of hair would you really like to have?
I want really long waist-length black hair that's always strait and cut at the fringe. Like Sawako from Kimi Ni Todoke (I secretly want to be Asian, as I think they're beautiful)

2. You're given a choice of keeping your current life, or choosing a new one in your favourite book/game/TV series etc. What do you do?
o////o Sel! That's a hard one! I love this life, but if I could go back to this life after a bit I'd totes go into the world of Naruto or Puella Magi or Ao no Exorcist! How could I choose?!

3. The apocolypse is coming. Who do you choose to keep you company in the fight for survival?
Uhhh my family even though I'd be whisked to heaven :T I hope ...

4. You wake up in the body of your favourite character. What do you do?
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I HAVE NINJA POWERS!

5. Sweet or savoury?
Sweet P:

6. Name a place you'd really like to visit that you haven't been to yet.
Japan Tokyo! So I could go to Akihabara.

7. You're given an offer of a place on the first colonisation shuttle to Mars. On the one hand, you'll make history; on the other, it's highly unlikely you'll ever come back to Earth. Do you take the place?
No :T Who wants to go up into boring space?!

8. If you could bring something extinct back to life, what would you choose?
Hmmmmmmmmmmm .... what things are extinct?

9. What is your earliest memory?
Uuuummmm, I guess when I was like super young and we went to Switzerland and there was an ice palace and I kept slipping over cuz the floor was ice - dad had to carry me.. I have quite a few from Switzerland actually. I have a much earlier memory but dunno if it's a memory cuz I saw it on a video :T

10. What's your secret skill?
Secret skill? Hmmmmm! Knitting?

COOL FOLKS WHO ARE TAGGED:

I just tagged 10 people in the previous post :T so those people do the other one please.

Tagged by: I swear I've done this before but meh Journal Spammage is fun!

1. You must post these rules
2. Answer the questions that the tagger sent you
3. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons in your journal
4. Go to their page and tell him/her that you have tagged them
5. No tag backs
6. No babbling in the tagging section about "you are tagged if your reading this" something, something...idk

She didn't put questions D: Dude what am I meant to answer then D': I'll just do these =3=

?'s questions:
1. Favorite animal?
Foxes, even though I am quite frightened of them from countless nightmares when I was younger.

2. Who's your favorite celebrity?:
David Tennant ^w^;;

3. Name a song, just off the top of your head.
Electric Love - Miku Hatsune

4. What's the last movie you watched?:
Last Movie? Hmmmmmm *thinks* Actually it would be Naruto: Ninja Clash in the Land of Snow. Cuz that's the last DVD I brought back up to my room from on top of the DVD player.

5. If you had a million dollars, what would you do?
I'd give have of it to me Dad to pay of some bills and Spend the rest on BJD stuff *¬*

6. QUICK! Favorite Drink!
Dr. Pepper! FOOK YEAH!

7. Funniest memory?
Not sure - I have a lot of them XD I guess yesterday when me and my brother and Cameron were playing Minecraft - I spawned on the roof of this floating glass house thing and then Jason came along and pushed me off by accident and I fell through the world XD hahahaha.

8. Favorite character from any media.
Hinata Hyuuga! <3

9. Name five of your favorite series.
Let's do my top five animes! (1) Naruto (2) Ao no Exorcist (3) Puella Magi Madoka Magica (4) Bakuman (5) Soul Eater

10. Favorite piece of artwork? (By you or someone else)
By meeeeeeeee it would be this one this month:



My Questions to the Taggie:
1. Fave Colour? (As if you don't get asked that enough)
2. What's your favourite possession?
3. Mmmkay, so what's your most EXPENSIVE possession?
4. What's your hobbies?
5. What is your fave anime?
6. Fave Webcomic?
7. Fave snack?
8. Favourite Country?
9. Do you like learning languages?
10. Can you speak or learning any languages that are not your mother language?

Tag:

Okay - how about 2 years worth of commissions (Up to 2 a month so I don't die) for $50 (Cuz I need it) ;3;